I’m used to play a part, to fit a role. I’m so used to be the confident, the hearing friend, such that when that is taken from me I’ll immediately start thinking I play no role in people’s lives anymore.

And when I find myself without a specific role to play, I feel like I’m just one step from being pushed and tossed to the garbage. But that doesn’t have to be true, right? things don’t have to be that way and that’s more of my overthinking than a thing that’s actually based on other people’s behaviour, right?

Except that I have been proven, yes, quite recently actually, that I can be tossed aside if and when I no longer fulfil a role or do a specific task. And that’s not the kind of thing I needed to be taught, but hey, it’s not like we can control what’s on other people’s minds.

But I don’t know, maybe it’s me, maybe I’m the one who needs to ditch the whole roleplaying, the whole “I need a label for what I do” or “I need to do a specific thing” because most likely these are also my constructs so only I can help me getting free from them.